Hi there, how do you do? My name is you.

Mondays are too freaking long. Chickens taste good. Modese Mouse destroyed my life. Driving is fun. I have been listening to too many different bands lately. I should write something for the school paper. I should actually start working on the music section of 7x. I need to wash some t-shirts. I can't wait to go see Project 86 and P.O.D. on December 1st. I am painting my face like a skull again. This time it will be better. There will be pictures. Speaking of pictures, here is the pimpkin (yes, that was a typo, but it was so awesome I am leaving it) I carved on Halloween. It is Homsar.

I am going to buy another game from Cheapass Games. It will probably be Deadwood, and maybe some expansions. Or maybe Kill Doctor Lucky. Or a zombie game. I like zombies. I like Resident Evil and Silent Hill. I can now play Nintendo 64 games on my compy. Paper Mario is awesome. So is Batman Begins. So is The Legend of 1900. You should all see both those movies. And listen to Modest Mouse. And Coheed and Cambria. Okay, that is all for tonight. More posting later.

Time for a little honesty

I am freaking sick of living my life the way I am. For quite some time, I've been living my life however I want, professing my faith in Christ, while the whole time I have been living a life that says anything but. I keep saying I'm tired of lusting, lying, swearing, disobeying my parents, stealing, judging, being prideful, and a whole list of other sins I can't even think of right now, but I do nothing to change them. I just keep committing the same sins over and over and over again, continually asking God for forgiveness, then slapping Him in the face by committing the sin I just asked forgiveness for. I keep asking God to take away these parts of me so I can live for Him, all the while silently saying, "But not quite yet. Let me keep doing this a little longer." But you know what? I'm done with that. I am taking things into my own hands. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing this with God every stop of the way, but I realize it's up to me to take that first step and stand up to temptation, because that's the only way I'm going to grow in my faith and in my relationship with God. These past two days have been a pretty cool experience. I've finally made a real commitment to read my Bible on a daily basis (and really read it and apply what I'm reading to my life) and to stop living my own way and start living God's way. I've screwed up a bunch of times already, but you know what? I'm not allowing myself to get away with that kind of crap anymore. I'm asking for forgiveness for those things right away, and then trying to take those kinds of thoughts captive the next time they come around. I'm developing defenses against my old ways of life, and then asking God for help after I've started, instead of waiting for Him to change me. And finally, finally, it feels like I might be getting somewhere for once. So, to anyone who actually reads this, if you'd be willing to do me a favor and keep me accountable to this new standard of living and following Christ I'm trying to accomplish, it'd be much appreciated. I will totally do the same for you, if you like. So I guess that's about it for right now... I think Project 86 said it best in their song, "Sincerely Ichabod":

We once drew some lines in black
And right now it's about time we took them back
So bored of losing ground to the heresy
In our hearts
With a steady steady hand hand hammer hammer blade blade through your sweaty sweaty skin skin skin
...
Off with your head
We'll take it all back, and then some
...
I know who I am in the depths of spirit and truth
I've seen the face of redemption, and He isn't you
I through indulging the depths of my cruelest nature
So I think this blade better suits you...
Since we're the ones who occupy this temple
We'll be the ones who'll show you out

PS: CAMEO FOR JENESSA! WOOHOO!